Be the leaf

I dedicate this post to Ashley Scott.

It is midnight and I have settled in bed for the night.  I am emotionally drained and I look forward to some rest.  It will undoubtedly help me get through another work week.

My life is draining.  Money is tight, work is super stressful, my family is in dire straits, and my love life in shambles.  But I know I will get through it.

This weekend I ended a very short relationship with a wonderful man.  He was kind, caring, understanding, supportive, loving, and so giving.  One might ask why I ended it.  It still seems hard to swallow but the truth is, I wasn't happy most of the time.

He was great and this is very true.  He did so much for me and for that I will forever be grateful.  However, he lacked a few fundamental qualities that are very important to me.  I just wish I had had the guts to recognize them sooner.  Then I would have much less of a heartache and would not have put him through any pain.  Time will heal the wounds as it usually does but right now I miss my companion.

La vie n'est qu'une vague.  Il faut flotter comme une oiseau sur la surface.  Be the leaf and let the wind carry you.  I learned that from this man.  I understand it.  I also learned that life is not simple and that in the worst of circumstances, you can pull through and make things work.  Another thing which I realized is that I must be true to myself at the end of the day.  I am glad I did in this case even if it hurts right now.

Tonight I will go to bed alone with a heavy heart.  But I hope that tomorrow I will wake up feeling lighter, relieved of my decision, and ready to face a new day.  Here's to the pursuit of happiness.